U Can't See Me

Written Jan. 15, 2008 ~ Dedicated to Chamara Hicks… A priceless diamond that has yet to realize her value… I love you

You can’t see me, you can’t feel me

You’re too afraid

I want to let go, don’t know how

I long for you, but I can’t tell that you want me

It seems so silly that a heart could mourn

So silly when a heart is torn

Over a fantasy that I lived alone

We say we’re together and we keep it safe

Leave the exploring to those who dare to dream

No need to know me, you are comforted here

Never really showing me who you are

It seems so silly that a heart could morn

So silly when a heart is torn

Over a fantasy… a fantasy

You build me up to avoid the care

Self sufficient, yeah you like me there

No investment, No effort required

So easy for you to walk away

For us, I dream alone…

I’ve watched you all this time

Seeing the best in you, wanting to share that too

Woke up today and looked at you

Only to find your eyes were empty

When did the light dim? When did it fade?

I must have slept through a chapter of you

Why is my heart torn when it isn’t real?

Woke up this morning

Starred in the mirror

I found myself reaching for your soul

My heart is breaking

For you wouldn’t look back

And then… my reflection stood out to me

And I realized it was my love all along

It was me who is tender and full of light

It was me who cherishes the deepest hues

It was me who created the chapter called “you”

How can a heart mourn over a fantasy that is mine to choose?

Mine to choose

No one can see me when I won’t look first

No one can see me when “I” refuse to be present

Centerpiece on the table for show

Part of the routine… daily flow

Glimpses of truth and I’m shook I’m hooked

I stay afraid so that I can blame

It hurts less if I don’t recognize that “I” don’t see me

It hurts less if I evade the truth that “I” broke my heart

It seems so silly when a heart is torn

Over pain that is caused by only one

All this time…

I didn’t know that the “you” I was looking for was…Me

How is it that “I” didn’t see me?

How is it that I did not see ME?

Prayer of the Divine Self

Father/Mother Divine, Son as one, Infinitely do I seek thee, the true essence of me. For I AM! I am the eternal continuum of life and the harmonic expression of love reverberating balance within the ethers and the Eternal Now. Infinitely I experience this, consciously realizing the blessing of opposition. The highest truth, purest love, and sacred harmony will forever be my hosts and my neighbors. Creation knocks dutifully and joyfully on the door between my brows. Openly and gratefully I receive that which I am, Creation! I am soaring the chords of the unimaginable, producing a music that would romance the most chaotic energy into sipping the wines of harmony and right order. Third eye, sacred treasure... reveal... remove the veils of truth that I may access the highest clarity and move within the bath of Eternal Light, emanating and amplifying codes within the sacred geometry of my beingness that bear fruits of the sweetest nectar. The nectar of hope, resolution, love, compassion, and progress.

In this whirl of harmonic balance, finding myself at zero ~ a formless energy, raw and unbundled, collects itself and rides the breath of a wave, quietly presenting currents of truth on the shores of raw creativity. The Sacred Feminine massages the shoulders of uncertainty and strokes the hair of a subdued truth until it becomes untangled and flowing with beauty.

Untamed, there is no beast to control, for the wild has been unjustly defined by the fear of the uneducated. Nature harmonizes with the melodies of all of life's kingdoms and needs not be domesticated by the intellect or egoic shackles that masks itself as structure and order.

I AM, savor my nature, I do not destroy with greed, but transform through the the creed of galatical purpose. I AM LOVE servicing the highest good.

The elements are my family
Air, Fire, Water, and Earth
I continually give birth to harmony
The resistance will fade
Sacred Truth is not ignored
Christhood will invade this shade
And consciousness of the the highest will soar

May It Be, May It Be, May It Be, So It Is! Amin ~

Beautful Blackwoman

This poem was written Jan. 8, 1997
And dedicated to my best friend Sonia C. Easter

Your beauty is not only defined by the deep strength exuding from your skin, the lust of black waves protecting your crown or your sleek feminine style that make other women frown
Yes, we see the soft almonds that shape your eyes and the nose that signatures your lineage of the skies
Your lips infinitely attract as they speak but true insight experiences her esoteric peaks
Radiant vibrations emanate as you share love
Reverberating harmoniously synergistic explosions within the universal glove
As trees dance with music of the wind and water laughs as the tides come in
Stars are majestic with buoyancy in the skies and flowers play under the sun's bright eyes
Your beauty saturates the world with love
Your beauty reaching deep within, beyond dimension and realms, before time began
Amoebas and protozoa are truly reflecting...

Your love.... the balance... the connection...

You Are A Beautiful Black Woman

The Wonderment of Ascension

The journey of the human spirit
is
very much like the metamorphosis of a butterfly
Living
Existing
Unsure of what will be
Challenged by a precarious destiny
Scarcely realizing that death
Is but the birth of a new
We were born like caterpillars
To learn humbleness and compassion
We live in a cocoon until to prove that we are worthy
We ascend as a beautiful new creature
As a reward of our endurance

Come Into The All

Ascending into cosmic realms, karma evolving... positively sound
Open yourself to emotion never seen
Feel everything as you and you as a dream

Emitting energies, galatical influence
Emersed...absorbed...by loves natural vent

Surrounded by purity, drowned by angelic tears
Recognition of self is "Elohim" stand without fear!

Soar the clouds as a ship, launched through a port
Your an awakening avatar, an etheric being of sort

Collective entities dance to the insights conceived
While immense vibrations claim the aura of your being

Exhilarating is your light, impenetrable
Emanating the power of violet and green...spiritual
Chosen by elders to help us guide
Eliminating race, time, and illusions of pride

Come into "The all", hear your cosmic conscious call
Expand back into the heavens that you are
The godly ones, the celestial ones, the one from the stars
"Come into the all"

Euphoria

Inhaling deeply as life is experienced at its very essence
Overwhelmed by the salty distillation that fills those almond shaped pools
Sensing the boundless sea of freedom, open to all but known by a few
Euphoria, that's what I call it
A paradise of total pleasure
A blissful hysteria
Where sweet kisses impersonate the flavors of candy
Tongues held captive with thrusts of passion manifested only by a true love
Vibrations - yes, they travel throughout the kingdom
Global warming is stimulated as the soul's desire reaches a climatic high
Thoughts of perfection is satisfaction
Music invades the body ... And for that moment... We Live!

Robbed

From the heart to the attic, inspiration ascends, and this pen allows me to begin, identifying the thoughts within.
Yet if I don't seize that very moment, my hands may have shown it, thoughts may be lost forever, in my boundless sea of treasures... unindexed and unlabeled within the stalls of my mind's stable... lost in the fabric of time.
The very stroke of my pen, robbed of a thought within, shall never present itself, at the same time ever again. Thus, I've been robbed of a part me.